The Struggle

So, I had my weigh in this morning and I'm down another 2.2lbs! So, that brings me to 174lbs. I will move down in points allowed this week, which is good, I feel ready for that step down. This makes me 15lbs from my original goal of 50lbs of weight loss.

Here is my run from yesterday. It was a treadmill run, I ran 2.1 miles (that last 1/10 of a mile like to had killed me!) and then walked for a little over 3 miles. It was almost 80 degrees when I woke up yesterday (it was my day off so I didn't head out to run until 10'ish) and I couldn't imagine running in the that heat.



I really do like the Nike+ and I have to say, it is very motivating! Something about the Nike+ Mini person widget thing sitting there getting bored makes me want to go out and run! :)

In other news, my friends and husband are getting sick of me talking about the gym, exercising and food all the time. My husband actually told me this. I told him I would try not to talk about it so much but explained to him that he has no idea what it's like to battle weight constantly. I will always have to work hard to keep the weight off, it will always be a battle for me to make the right choices. It will come easier over time, but it's something that I'll always have to be aware of and held accountable for. I could only compare it to a battle against alcoholism. Food is my addiction.

I also explained that the reason I talk about it so much is because I'm excited about my new way of living. I'm excited that I'm losing weight and getting healthier. It makes me happy. When you feel that way about something, you can't help but talk about it!

One of THOSE Days

Yesterday was one of those days. You know the ones. It was a roller coaster.

I woke up, felt good, only had a half day of work, ate my oatmeal with berries, headed to work.

Got to work, it was a mad house per usual, got a headache, got grumpy, stuck it out knowing that when I got home I could spend the afternoon relaxing at the pool after the gym.

Got home, pulled my car into the driveway, out came the clouds which stayed around all day. Ate lunch, totally gave into my couch which has it's own gravitational pull, still had a headache, so I took a nap.

Woke up and all I wanted was a greasy pepperoni pizza and a snickers bar. Fought off that craving, make healthy dinner of grilled vegetables and multi-grain pasta, decided instead of the gym to take my dog (who is lazier than my husband) on a walk, we walked two wonderful miles, saw a gopher on a golf course like Caddyshack (it was even kinda dancing...or eating, but I like dancing better) and I felt great when I got home. I ate well, got some exercise.

Then, the bottom fell out. It started with "I'll have some frozen yogurt...on top of a No Pudge Brownie...with fat free cool whip...a couple pretzels crushed on top...oh, I have white chocolate chips too" and before I realized it, I had eaten a good 3/4 cup of white chocolate chips, the entire ice cream sundae from hell and later fixed a 100 calorie bag of popcorn.

Granted, one heavy dessert slip...not too bad, but I also went over points (stupid beer) on Saturday. I didn't even really enjoy what I binged on! I'm a firm believer that if you are going to go wild, go wild on something you really want. I didn't really want white chocolate chips. They were just there. I think they will be going just in the trash can when I get home tonight.

I'm not going to be hard on myself, it is what it is. Today is a new day and so far so good. I have my food for the day pretty much planned out. I am going to the gym after work. My Nike+ kit and new Ipod should arrive today. All is well. I will not let my food addiction beat me this time. This time I'm calling the shots.

My office is a mind field!

Ok, I work on Saturdays...every Saturday. I live at the beach and I work in weekly vacation home rentals. Saturday is our turn over day (the day guests check out and check in), so it's our busiest day. It's a mad house. Being Memorial Day weekend, this is our first "in season" weekend, so it's the first really busy one. We could be here anywhere from 8-12 hours today.

Well, I share an office with the housekeeping department and do you know what they keep at the ready, at all times?

COOKIES. This place is like a mind field of diet failure!

Like, loads of cookies. Chocolate chip, sugar, oatmeal, peanut butter...you name it, they probably have it over there. I came prepared today. I brought healthy snacks. I even brought healthy cookies! Well, it's 3:44pm, technically I'm supposed to get out of here at 4:45pm, chances are that will be more like 5:30pm, 6:00pm...but that's not the issue. Sometimes I hear the cookies taunting me. No seriously....

Psss, hey, fat girl...we're here...we're amazingly tasty...we have icing and we crunch when you bite into us; unlike those healthy cookies.

Jeez and the stress of the day just makes them seem that much more tempting. I walk past them all day long. Last year I would grab them, by the handfuls.

Hello Honey, we're here, we're cookies, get used to it and eat us!

I had to write this up because I have to remember that they are not worth it!

Yes we are...

Ugh! Shut up cookies! I know I don't want really want them, it's simply because they are there.

It's going to be a long summer.


Do you know that while I was typing this I answered 12 phone calls, called 2 plumbers, directed my Maintenance guy to 3 different houses for issues and talked someone through resetting their garbage disposal? Welcome to summer for me!

My Kick Bootay Mix

So, I put together a playlist this week that has been amazing! This thing has kept me going even when I totally didn't feel like it. I pushed myself harder and at some points I was even semi-dancing on the treadmill, I couldn't help myself. I thought I'd share it, so, here it is.

1. Mutemath - You Are Mine For stretching before hand
2. The Bravery - Time Won't Let Me Go
3. Kelly Clarkson - I Do Not Hook Up
4. Mutemath - Typical yeah, I know, Mutemath twice...but I like them
5. Rise Against - Re-Education (Through Labor)
6. Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow (Club Version)
7. Britany Spears - Circus
8. Metro Station - Shake It
9. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Pen & Paper
10. Incubus - Dig
11. Pink - Long Way to Happy
12. Coldplay - Viva La Vida
13. David Cook - Come Back to Me

It's amazing, when I'm not working out, I couldn't imagine listening to Britany Spears. I'm just not that big of a fan...but it's great for working out! :)

So, there it is. I give you my "Kick Bootay Mix"!

I am the tortoise of weight loss...

...and I'm alright with that. I had my official WI this morning and I lost 1.8lbs, bringing my weight loss total to 33.4lbs since January 5th. The first 30lbs came off easy, since then every pound has been slow going, but it's ok. I'm still losing. I'm not going in reverse, I am getting more tone, I am healthier than I've been in...well, ever and I feel good about myself. I know that slow weight loss is more apt to stay off. I am at 176.2lbs and proud of it. :)

I skipped the gym for 2 days...in a row. On Tuesday I got home from work and all I wanted to do was sit on my couch and do nothing. I haven't had a night in months that wasn't "get home from work, go to gym, back home, do laundry, cook dinner, go go go" or "get home from work, change clothes, go out with friends, go go go" that I decided I had earned a lazy night. So I took one. Wednesday is my scheduled "skip day" from the gym because I play in a team trivia league, so I skipped then too. Thursday I did a two hour work out and I felt great. I did 5 miles on the treadmill (running for two) and just when I thought I might give up I thought about crossing the finish line of a 5k this fall and it made me just keep on going. I felt amazing afterward. Some days I really don't feel like working out, but I just think about how great I feel after a work out and that will usually get me there. I think I'm addicted to the endorphins.

Overall, I'm happy with my week. 1.8lbs is a loss I am happy with. I ate well, I went out with friends, allowed myself to have a good time and not stress about counting every single point and I still lost.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! :)